The title really says it all. I've struggled with this topic my whole life. To many I'm sure I seem so in control, and for the most part I am. What would my life look like if I didn't have to be in control? That is a question I'm not sure I'd know what that would feel or look like.
For as long as I can remember I've been in control. I've had to do everything and learn from everything. I never thought I could have what I truly wanted without being in control. What is control really about? Why does one control things?
For me I feel like I was taught this behavior. Take control so you make sure you get what you need done and have it done the right way. What a horrible way to live and think. I don't want control anymore. I've worked really hard on just being in the moment, doing what feels good to me and not doing what's normal anymore. This will take much more time to overcome. So far it's made my life alot easier and relaxing. I'm looking forward to the unknown future. Let's all get out of control together!!
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